I need help NOW Im in so much trouble!?

Question

I am struggling with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and have been struggling with alcoholism as a result of it. First off, I have nonstop panic attacks because of seizure disorder and the only way I can go outside is to drink. I almost died 5 years ago at age 23 from a brain aneurysm.

Well, I successfully quit drinking for months and relapsed. I have no license from seizures and my friend drove us to a bar. My body wasnt used to alcohol and I got drunk extremely fast. I ended up falling in the parking lot and hit my head VERY hard, cut my nose, hands and knee.

My friend was like ur fine and took me home. She was so wasted that she helped me up and left. The pain in my head was so extreme and I got up and looked in the mirror and could not believe how much blood and the size of the injury that was on my head. I called 911 since I knew there was something wrong because of the amount of pain I was in.

At the hospital (which i deserved) they treated me like crap for drinking yet I still needed a ride home. My mom started screaming at me when I called and asked me what happened and I told her I think we were in an accident and that my friend (who Im questioning my frienship with anyway considering leaving me bleeding) drove home to avoid a DUI.

Its been 24 hours. I have been in bed all day. How do I explain to my mom this was all a fabricated lie? Or do I just roll with the car accident story? One things for sure, this is def. a low point and Ive needed one as an excuse to get sober. THanks

Additional Details

I went thru a year long rehab program. My panic attacks came back and my doctor said they are a result of PTSD and put me on Seroquel. (which is for psychotic episodes) I sleep 24 hours straight on it or I would take it.

Answer 1

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You need to talk to your mom about it. Sure she will be mad - but there is a reason...she loves you and is worried about you. The fact that you are writing this shows that you too are worried about your behaviour.

Sounds like your problems stem from feelings of hopelessness. You have a medical condition that prevents you from driving, so you feel low at the idea of lack of independence, so you go out and drink to obtain a feeling of the independence you lack. Drinking is not the solution - talking about it with those you love is the answer. Although hard to face up to to begin with, it is the only long-term answer and may even save your life.

You are going through feelings of loss at everything you can not do that all your friends can do. So you are unique - just dont self-destruct. Remember, you are not alone - reach out to those around you (including your mom) and get help.

What do I know about it?
I've just been diagnosed with a medical condition called "dysautonomia" which means I can never drive, and have had to change careers (after spending 4 years at uni for a course I will never be able to use).

It is natural to go through feelings of loss and anger - it is just how you deal with it that counts.

MY STORY.

Dysautonomia is basically a malfunction of the autonomic nervous system. The body is designed to have a mechanism called "fight or flight" which gets you ready for emergency situations. Your heart races, mouth goes dry, eyes widen, muscles twitch etc. Problem is when this happens again and again for absolutely no reason - can wake in the middle of the night feeling like something is chasing me.

An unfortunate side of it is that I can (and have) loose consciousness without warning. This means I will never be able to get my drivers licence.

I had a similar sobering experience to you about 9 years ago. I was visiting my sister in a different state, and staying with her. I was not much of a drinker, but her and all her friends were. They took me out for the night on the town.

Little did I know that the dysautonomia (undiagnosed at this point) meant that certain alcohol could affect me badly. I ended up collapsing in the womens toilet, completely disorientated and thinking everyone around me was trying to attack me - great fun for the ambulance officers who were called to collect me. It took 6 people to subdue me.

By the time they got me to the ambulance my blood sugar had dropped so low it was unmeasurable and I was barely conscious. They took me to hospital, and gave me something to bring me around. Everyone there made me feel like crap for "drinking so much" - I had only had 2 drinks.

I told my parents about it over the phone (in a different state). I'm lucky I get along so well with them.

You are right that you need a low point to get you motivated to change. Thing is, rather than thinking about all the things you have lost, or cant do - think of what you CAN do, and what you have...you are alive, having survived your brain aneurysm - and survived the fall and a drive home with a very drunk "friend'.
(By the way...anyone who would drop you off and leave you in the state you were in is no friend. She should not have been driving anyway!)
If you stick with the car accident story it will eventually unravel on you and you will be in even more trouble. Just talk to your mom and explain that you have a problem with alcohol, and have reached rock bottom and what help to get back on track.
Surround yourself with true friends - and dont go hanging around with people who hurt you.

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Ohhh yea I have had episodes of what they thought were Dysautonomia but turned out to be Psychosis after seizures. Same kinda deal, thought everyone was attacking me and needed tied down and sedated. That was without alcohol!

Answer 2

always tell the truth surround yourself with people that
will support you and help you through the rough spots.
ask at the hospital or you doctor if there is any help
groups that you can join.
best of luck

Answer 3

your lucky ya didnt get killed and your lucky you have a mother and you shoukd tell her whats going on thats your mom thats love

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Answer 4

tell the truth and let people help you, you sound very smart just had it rough email if you need someone to talk to [e-mail]

Answer 5

be honest with her

Answer 6

maybe you need to check yourself into a rehab facility to help you get off the alcohol..drinking and seizures absolutely dont mix..
as far as letting family know how you got hurt...you should come clean and quit lying about being in an accident, this is not fair to your friend..
you dont need an excuse for drinking, you just make them up to make yourself feel better...
please get some professional help before you really injure yourself or worse..
good luck