My friend is scared for me. It scares me that I've gotten to this point. Long but please read. Help?

Question

I'm depressed, I've been cutting, I hate my self, and I want to die well more of kill myself. I was in one-on-one therapy for a week but I cut myself again and had to go to the ER and they sent me to the Insitute of Living for the night and was there all last Tuesday and had one-on-one therapy on Wednesday. They set me up with group therapy. Yesturday, I had to go in the morning for like don't know how to put this into words but like introduction pretty much. I then had a horrible day at school included with crying a lot a lunch because I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to quit swim team and band (I'm a section leader in band and I worked hard for my position) and my best friend Alex comes over to sit and he says, 'Am I the only one not depressed here' I looked up and told him to shut up and he comes over to my side of the table and hugs me and talks to me about it, trying to make me feel better. So then on the bus, I get a text from my ex friend saying 'I Heard wat happened and i just wanted 2 say im srry' and I asked her who told her and she said Alex and when I asked Alex why he told her he said 'I told nikki cuz im scared for u... I dont want u to get even more messed up... And im bad at talking ppl out of stuff... Nikkis good at it... Terrance says hi.' And it just really freaked me out because a bunch of people are worried about me and I'm used to that but he's my best friend and he's SCARED for me. And this morning going to encore I passed him in the hallway and he asked if I was okay and I turned and shook my head no and he came up and hugged me and I just don't know what to do he's just so close to me that it hurts. And last week we had a friend in the Insitute of Living because she was planning suicide, so I'm pretty sure he also doesn't want me to end up at that point. But, he doesn't know that I know how I would kill my self I only talked about that this morning with Justin. And I haven't told Alex how hard it is just to get through the days now, and I just find everything so pointless, and that I'm just sick of being around. He does know that I wanted to switch schools. And I'm just so scared in myself because I've gotten to the point that he's scared for me. And I just don't know what to do.

Answer 1

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It sounds like he's only trying to care for you, he probably just want to be there for you in times like this. Mabye it's time you opened up alittle more for him, he's sounds really worried, and honestly i would be too if i were him. Talk to him, or a parent about whats going on in your life right now. You shouldn't be depressed and thinking about suicide, and if you are, you might just need to just take things slow, talk and express yourself to others and take a step back from life and look at all the good things... I'm having anorexia problems, and i know alittle how you feel. But please, don't take things too far or suicide or anything, just let him for a little while and let him know how your feeling. I really hope this helps and things get better for you :) Good luck

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thanks. it's hard though, it hurts to know you gotten that far that you scare people that care for you. I hope you get better

Answer 2

Try seeing a therapist and have them prescribe you medications for your depression and talk to them about your cutting. That would be a big help. It might be hard but hang in there!

Answer 3

I had a friend who was thinking about killing herself. She came to me everyday and told me how she thought life was pointless. I finally told one of my school counselors about it and she got help. Dont go through with this. you have plenty of other people who love and care about you, im sure. dont let your friend alex down, he obviously loves you. im really trying to make you cange your mind. i hope im helping you out.

your friend,
Shelby.

Answer 4

if u want /need prayer u can call ths #1800-759-0700 ive been there in a depression where things seem pointless couldnt laugh no joy.nothin made me happy but thnk God im better now a litt goofy(was always a litt goofy) lol but better .also iread tha bible ,talk 2 God (pray)go to church ,i got my laugh bac .u can do these things in addition 2 seein a /goin 2 therapy God can hlp u either way

Answer 5

you need to find your purpose in life, and believe me you were born here with a purpose. perhaps you should pick up a copy of the book The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. It has helped millions of people who were once as lost as you feel right now. I think it will help you tremendously and much more than any answer from the yahoo answerers.

Jesus loves you very much. He created you to fulfill something here that only you can do. It's something awesome, believe me. Otherwise, the demons would be leaving you alone. They are trying to keep you from finding your purpose in life because you have a major role to play in the end days. We are in those days now. So wake up! We need you. God needs you. And believe me when I tell you that you can do this! God put it into you when you were in your mother's womb.

You have power over the demons trying to take control over you. They influence you to cut yourself, and they put thoughts of suicide into your head. Through the Son of God, Jesus, you have power over them! In His Name, you can order them to leave you alone. Without Him, though, you are powerless over them. Do not try to deal with them on your own; you will not overcome. You have friends who care about you. Your life is worth living. I will pray that God shows you the way. I will pray that you find your purpose here. Because you are one mighty important person in God's army - believe that!

Prepare for battle!