Seriously, what was up with that? (trans question, HRT)?

Hey all... I switched over to testosterone shots this year after over a year on oral testosterone.

I totally rocked the needle the first time I did it in under the nurse's supervision, I was equally skilled when Mouth was watching me (and videotaping cause he's cute like that), but I flopped last week when I did a half dose (that's all that was left in my vial), and this week doing my full dose I sat there locked in panic unable to do my shot for twenty minutes and then goofed it (it hurt, but it worked).

I am so, not amused with myself and rather than fume and let it eat at me, I've got to ask... does this happen to anyone else or has it happened? Can I get some loving in the form of shared injection angst (I get real pent up right before I decide I'm going to do it, even though I know it's not going to hurt for more than a minute), or tips on how to not get so dramatic about my shots?

Is this just one more step in transition? The realization and panic that I am sticking myself with a very powerful needle, and it's healthy to be a little ... err... afraid??

Thanks for well thought out answers and love to all, trolling and hate will make me laugh. :D

(For out of five of the suggested sections - Cars & Transpo... bwah??)

Update:

Boogie, Mouth isn't ready to do that yet... he can't even look into my sharps container without going a little white.

I know all the techniques, and CAN do it... but... I seem to suck at it the more I do it....? It feels like it should be the opposite, that I should get better at it with time.

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  • Koryn
    Lv 7
    1 decade ago
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    Jay you are human you will screw it up once in a while. Give it some time and it will become second nature to you.

    Source(s): Just A Woman Born With Transsexualism
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  • Ok, if it makes you feel any better..

    I stick people with needles as part of my upcoming career. I've stabbed..er..I mean "drawn"..on my professor, my clinical intern supervisor, and I've given other transguys their shots before to.

    But doing it to myself? Even after almost 6 years, I still get that weird sense of panic right before the needle goes into my skin. I know I *can* do it, and I know I know how to do it properly, and I'm not like some people when it comes to needles. I don't close my eyes, or scream, or cry or anything. It's just when I see myself about to stick that needle into my skin, I stop for a second. Sometimes..it's funny. I'll sit there and start to dart the needle in and will stop myself right before it goes in and I have to repeat that motion about 3 or 4 times until I can finally get past my own mental block enough to actually get the needle into my skin. I give myself my shot in the quadricep though. I've thought about doing it in my glutes but I feel weird about twisting my body around that way, and I dont' feel confident that I'd be doing it correctly since I can't see everything I'm doing.

    I've had times too where I've left hematomas (bruises) on myself, testosterone or blood flows back out, or I pull the needle out at an awkward angle and end up injuring myself. It happens.

    I feel your pain. :)

    Source(s): Been doing the shot thing for close to 6 years now.
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  • Anonymous
    1 decade ago

    I've been getting B12/B6/B complex shots for two years now, but I only started giving them to myself a couple of months ago. The first time I tried to give myself one was at the doctor's office with the nurse there. I had never gotten an IM shot in my thigh before, and I was really anxious about it. I couldn't even break the skin. The nurse ended up having to give it to me. Riley was with me, and he, of course, found it amusing. I felt pretty pathetic.

    I do them by myself now, but I'm still not used to it. I have trouble holding the needle still while I stagger it in, so I get bruises and my leg is usually sore for the rest of the day. I don't have any real tips for doing it. Whenever I get blood drawn, I try not to look because it makes me nauseous. I can't stand watching the blood fill up the tubes. Being distracted also helps, but that's a bad idea when you're giving yourself a shot.

    Anyway, I think it gets better as it becomes more of a routine and you get used it.

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  • 1 decade ago

    I had that exact same thing happen to me. The very first time I did it, the needle slid in like it was going into butter. The nurse was impressed. And then nearly every time that I try to do it, I have difficulty. They say to go fast, but I just go slow and watch myself do it. That's the only way I ever get it in.

    Sometimes you just need to give it a break and come back to it. Sometimes you're too nervous, and if you wait a little while, you won't be so nervous the next time.

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  • Anonymous
    1 decade ago

    my friend can't do his own shots either and so wishes he can (and he's been taking T for roughly 26 weeks). That needle is hard core!! (I've seen it). If you go on youtube and check out some of the transguys channels, you will see it's very common. It's not a big deal to ask a friend or gf to do it for you. Goodluck bro :)

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  • 1 decade ago

    heroin addicts do it for motavation to get high, u have the motivation to transform yourself...

    sorry but atm i feel like being a douche :D

    Source(s): My adorable self =D
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